Not to be a Debbie Downer. My update isn’t what I hoped to tell you.
I was starting to pull it together. Rob says I appear to be doing better from the outside. On the inside I still feel like I’m falling apart.
I was starting to gain footing and the strength to fight the black hole. I was even slowly beginning to gain ground. Then everything fell apart.
I found myself in a situation I wasn’t able to handle. I knew I couldn’t handle it before it happened. I also knew it was going to happen moments before it did. Even though I begged for it to not happen. I begged. It happened anyway.
Now I’m getting sucked back into the black hole. The difference this time is that rather than being say 100 yards away from the black hole and fighting it; now I’m 50 yards away and fighting it.
I’m so tired.