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I’m still trying to write about 5 other posts at the moment about various topics ranging from myself to Gavin to other things I can’t remember at the moment. However, I’ve been side-tracked and it’s frustrating me! There is a blog I frequent that I simply adore. Sarah at To define is to limit (a title which I also adore) has a graphic on her blog, which she gave me permission to borrow a while ago I just haven’t gotten around to swiping it yet. This is what it looks like:

In case you are unable to read it, it says:

“I write for the same reason I breathe…because if I didn’t, I would die.”

Now I know this may not make complete sense to some of you. To others you are likely shaking your heads, saying, “Yeah, that about sums her up.” Trust me what I tell you, this is me. I love to write. I live to write. Writing is who I am. Or at least it was, before I had three children.

Now writing is a dormant part of my soul. Every so often, it twitches. Like a heart that is attempting to regain it’s rhythm. Sometimes I get this nagging, in the farthest recesses of my mind and imagination. Begging me to let it out, to write it and set it free.

This isn’t a spontaneous occurance. It doesn’t just happen. At least, not to me, anyway. It takes a spark. Something to awaken it from it’s long dormant state. To nudge it and jolt it out of the coma I forced it into 9+ years ago. For whatever reason, Twilight appears to have been that.

I felt the twitch. Although I can’t quite remember when. I think it was somewhere between Books 3 and 4 but I can’t be sure. The twitch came. The nagging followed. Now I’m scrambling.

I’m dying to write. I literally feel as if my soul is shriveling up from within. But theywon’thelpme! The twitch. The nagging. Aren’thelpingme! I don’t know where to start. I don’t know what to write. I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not, but my grammar SUCKS! Which is funny and ironic because grammar is a huge pet peeve of mine, but again I digress.

So here I sit. Frustrated to the point of wanting to scream and pull my hair out by the roots. None of my friends or family are really writers, so no help there. I’m trying music. Nothing.




So if I’m not around for a while. If I’m not here. I’m not blogging. I’m not commenting. This is why. I’ve been trying to ease my frustration with blogging and it’s not working. So now, I’m off to find something else.

Plus, I just needed to vent. ARGH!

(***Update*** And now I’ve swiped the image and it’s posted to the blog. Both in this post and above my picture to the right. You were worried. I know. Rest peacefully now. 😉 lol)